Loony Bin...Reservation for 1 PLEASE!!

I sat down today to at the computer to write a post about our recent trip to San Diego. As I tried to write (which is usually very easy for me to do), I was stumped. I was at a loss. I felt so overwhelmed & stressed that I literally couldn't begin. 

For the year or so, I seem to have more & more moments of "motherly

frustration." Let to explain...I used to be a pretty put-together gal. Worked 2 jobs from home, held callings at church that I magnified to the best of my ability, usually always kept a clean home, & still had time for my children (play dates, field trips, & extra-curricular activities).

But lately, I feel like I'm losing it. I can honestly say that I am NO LONGER a put-together gal in any sense of the phrase. It seems that more and more my house is a disaster, I forget the duties I've been assigned in my calling, & I am hardly EVER showered with hair done & make-up on. Also, I can no longer stay on top of the work I have for my jobs either. I always have piles of incomplete tasks always on my desk.

Now, let me just say, that I LOVE being a mom. It is a blessing to me in my life. I love each of my boys with all my heart and wouldn't trade them for anything!!! But when is it or how is it that you a mom gives up all the secondary things in life (callings, job & a clean house) for being a 100% full time mom? I am a go-get 'em kind of personality. I always need to have a project that I am working on...but how do I transition my life to make that project my kids and only my kids and let the rest of it go??

I don't really know what triggered my life slowly falling behind. I don't know if it was adding the 4th child? Or maybe it was having the boys home full time over the summer? But I look around to my friends with their kids and all of them seem to have a great handle on their lives. Many of them have small jobs out of the home & callings that they serve in. Yet, they still seem to have a clean house, activities for their kids & patience to endure both. I, on the other hand, feel as though I can't keep up with it all. SOMETHINGS GOTTA GIVE!! But what should that be? I  need to get a grip on things again but as of right now, I feel like I am ALWAYS a step behind in all areas of my life. I feel as though I'm running in sand...I run & run but get no where quickly. Also, I have to work really, really hard to get anywhere at all.

Is it just me?? Am I the only one who is doubting my mothering/career/spiritual/housekeeping abilities?? Or do all Mom's feel like this but we NEVER talk about it??

I don't know where or even how start gaining control of my CRAZY life again?? So if anyone has a secret to "doing it all & looking good while you do," can you please fill me in. Because as of right now, I'm on the track to the loony bin just trying to keep up with my day to day responsibilities.